Monday, April 20, 2009

update

Well, I was hoping that hearing about funding from ACU would make my decision easier. It hasn't. Just got an email this evening telling me about the scholarship offer, and I'm still basically where I was as far as the choice itself. So here are my two offers:

Boston University - full tuition and an $8000 stipend per year.
ACU - full tuition and a grad assistantship which would pay about $1700 a year.

With the cost of living being so much higher in Boston, those two would honestly be pretty close to equal. They'd pay for housing, and then I'd have to take out student loans or work to pay for groceries and all that jazz.

So basically, when it comes down to it, money shouldn't be a deciding factor. And the things that are deciding factors have pros and cons for each school for various things, depending on who I want to be and where I want to go with my life. Thoughts and prayers still greatly appreciated!

2 comments:

Chrissy said...

Hi Laura - Steve forwarded your blog to me. Thank you for being honest in the struggle of fear this has been. I can definitely relate - it's a tough struggle between comfort and feeling like it's selfish ambition. Both schools are fantastic, and you'll be exactly where you need to be. Let us know if you want to talk more about life in Boston. We're praying for this decision with you.

Laura said...

Chrissy,

I don't know if you've got your own blog, but if so, it won't let me connect to it by clicking on your name, so I guess I'll just respond here. :)

I'm definitely feeling the weight of conflicting thoughts and emotions at the moment. I really am blessed/cursed with the ability to take any situation and analyze it to make it fit so very many different points of view, so I can take one issue and find ways in which each school so easily does and so obviously does not fit the criteria for what I believe I'm looking for (which is a whole other issue in and of itself...).

I think my final decision will basically come down to an honest assessment of where I am spiritually right now and which place would be the healthiest and most productive for me in that regard. I've come through some struggles in the past few years, and I'm not sure if I'm ready for the challenges I know Boston would present to me emotionally and spiritually. At the same time, I don't want to forever limit myself to my Church of Christ bubble, however much I may like it in many ways. The questions is, I suppose, where am I on that spectrum of spiritual readiness. Not always an easy thing to discern.

Anyway, thank you SO much for your prayers and encouragement! It means very much to me to know that I have so many people praying for me. It was a huge blessing to meet you and Steve and be allowed to see God working in and through you, and if I do end up in Boston, I hope to be able to get to know you better!